About Megan…
Megan
Physiologist and certified Akashic Record Healer
From a young age, I knew I was a healer. I was lucky enough to know my calling early on; but growing up in the United States, my only exposure to a healing profession was that of a doctor. If being a healer is what I was born to do and doctors are the only healers, it made sense to me to become a doctor.
Fast forward a couple of decades, I was two years away from completing my goals of becoming a provider and I felt beaten-up and spit-out. I got to a point in my life where I had been working in healthcare for a decade. I was going to school; in my last two years to become a provider and doing my clinicals. I was also working night shifts on a medsurg unit. I remember one night feeling overwhelmed, burnt-out, exhausted, unable to remember the last time I had a full 24 hours of not seeing a patient. I was struggling to process the extremes that were my every day.
One night shift, I was looking around at all my coworkers, and I had an epiphany that none of us were healthy. Some of us were physically healthy, but not mentally or emotionally; or vice versa. Every single one of my coworkers and patients were extremely unhealthy, myself as well. It felt like we were not truly healing our patients but using band aid solutions and symptom management. We were working in healthcare though. It was mind turning to me that we were in a field that was preaching health and wellness, but not a single one of us was able to demonstrate that or knew what that felt like. How could we all be so broken, overworked, exhausted, and struggling in our own way? How could we help others when we were stuck in a survival mode of “let’s just get through this shift.”? I realized how broken the system felt. I was struggling to process the extremes that were my every day.
After having my epiphany, I decided to take a break from school and patient care. I enrolled in therapy and decided to start my healing journey. I figured after a year, it would come to an end, I would feel well and get back to my journey to become a provider. I got a desk job with the hospital I was already working at and began my year of healing.
In my therapy, I felt like I was struggling to let go of all I was carrying from my patients and the events I was exposed to. My nervous system was a wreck which was causing my hormones to be a wreck. I was struggling to enjoy things and relax into less commitments. I remember talking to my therapist about how every car accident I came across, my heart would begin racing, my eyes would tear-up, and I did not understand why. That is when she recommended the book “The Body Keeps Score” by Dr. Bessel Van Der Kolk.
She told me a story about how when she was little, her and her siblings would pile into the back seat of her family’s car while her dad drove. If any of them acted up, he would reach behind his seat and slug whoever he could reach. She never thought much of it, even forgot about it. Decades later, her and her husband piled into their truck with another couple. The girls were in the back and the guys in the front. When her husband reached behind the passenger seat to back-up, she flinched and began tearing up. She said she was embarrassed and did not understand what was wrong with her. Her husband never once hit her or was abusive, but to everyone else, it probably looked that way. She was baffled and mortified. It wasn’t until later, she realized that she had flinched, because her body was remembering those moments from when she was little, and her dad would reach back to the back seat and slug her or her siblings.
Even though she herself did not consciously think that had a huge impact on her or her life, her body was holding onto the memory. Her body knew how to react from a previous experience, uncontrollable to her conscious brain.
That is the concept that Dr. Bessel Van Der Kolk explored in his book. He worked with a lot of veterans and learned how their bodies were also holding onto all their memories and storing them within.
We have all heard of muscle memory. Usually, regarding an athletic feat or habit, but this is almost like cell memory. A person’s cells are remembering things, affecting their nervous system, muscular system, and every other system. These cells are storing memories and emotions within the organs, fascia, and other parts of our bodies.
During my healing year, I also began dipping my toes into exploring my spirituality. My friend convinced me to see a psychic medium for the first time. I was a science person. I went in extremely skeptical. I left with my mind blown. It caused me to question everything I was previously sure of. I began deep diving into concepts like past lives, mediumship, reiki, acupuncture, and so much more. I was willing to try anything once and discovered that these “alternative” modalities were more healing for me than any of the traditional western techniques I was being taught and practicing.
The more I explored, the more I felt resistant to return to the western healthcare system. I began to feel like it was causing more damage than good to me and my patients.
One year went by, then two and I did not feel any more ready to return to become a provider and work in western medicine. I wasn’t ready to potentially struggle with those same things all over again. I couldn’t move past that resistance I was feeling within myself and questioned if this is really the best way to help heal people.
At this same time, my desk job that was meant to provide me rest and ease, became stressful as well. It made me realize that direct patient care or not, western medicine was not a conducive career path for me and my overall well-being. I knew I wanted to help people with their health though. I love science and I love the human body and I love helping others. I began exploring naturopathic medicine and other modalities.
Around this time, I participated in a past life regression. Again, I went into it skeptical, but was trying to be open to anything that happened. It ended up being a mind opening experience for me. I saw a past life I had, was reliving some of those experiences. It pieced together things for me in my present life, that did not previously make sense. It connected dots for me regarding feelings, thoughts, desires, and fears within my current life, that I had never previously given thought to. I realized that I was holding onto some of these past lived experiences within my current body. I was holding onto that trauma without a conscious knowing or understanding of those events.
It shifted my awareness. I became aware that not only was I holding onto feelings, traumas, events from my childhood and current life unconsciously within my body, but I was also holding onto those things from my past life as well.
Through this spiritual exploration, I began learning about everything my unconscious mind and body had a strong grasp on. I was learning all these moments and memories that my body was trying to tell me. I was learning the language it was speaking.
I was storing so many powerful, beautiful, and traumatic experiences. Things from my past lives, things from my ancestors, and things from my current life. It was only through accessing this information that I was able truly begin healing. Each time I accessed these memories and felt through them and worked through them, I could feel various parts of my body lighten.
While doing acupuncture, my acupuncturist started telling me about how different emotions are stored in different parts of the body and different organs. This was another key to the puzzle that had not previously made sense to me. Each stored memory and emotion I released; I felt the release in a different part of my body. Understanding this made the language of my body more and more clear.
At this point, I had been on my healing journey for about two years; doing a spiritual exploration and broadening my horizon. I was in my desk job for the hospital. While I knew it was not my forever, passion job, I was comfortable with my life until I figured out my next step. I was still feeling that resistance within regarding becoming a provider of any kind and I did not know what my future path was.
One day, I stumbled upon an Akashic Record healing course. It jumped out at me and felt like an experience I would be interested in trying at least once. I was open to trying as many spiritually based things as possible and this was just going to be a fun experience to cross off my list.
I had never experienced energy healing before. I was a little unsure of what it would entail or look like but was going into it open and excited. Right away, the teacher had us practice accessing the records and providing energy healing to a partner in the class. This felt foreign to me. I thought she might be crazy to think I could do what she does! Not once had I tried to access the Akashic Records or provide energy healing. I was hesitant but decided to let go of my fears and just surrender to the process and at least try.
Right away, I was able to pick-up on things about the person in front of me and I could feel the energy blocks between my hands and fingers. I was able to pick-up on chakras and specific parts of the body. I could feel the energy move and had no explanation for how or why. My practice partner was blown away by everything they were feeling within their body as I worked. Without understanding or having any previous experience of energy work, it just came easily and naturally to me.
I then began practicing on other people thinking maybe that class had been a one-off thing and maybe that person was just full of it. Each time, I would get similar feedback though. Each person could feel certain points being released in their body as I worked. Each person had a different unique experience, but each was powerful.
It was validating for me, and I began to realize that the resistance I was previously feeling about becoming a provider was because I was heading down a path that wasn’t meant for me. This ease was showing me my true gifts and calling.
I had always been able to pick up on energies and see things that did not make sense to those around me. This ability and gift had been within me my entire life. It was only once I silenced the outside world and societal views, that I was able to understand it more. I had accidentally silenced my greatest gift throughout my life and I was rediscovering it again and arguably for the first time.
I decided to take a leap of faith. I stopped working for the hospital, began practicing on more people and started my own business.
Now, I am lucky enough to help others in their healing journey. I feel thankful that I was able to find my passions and gifts again and I feel grateful that I get to share them and help others along the way.
I think that this type of healing can benefit everyone. It’s my belief that our bodies, mind and soul are telling us what we are holding onto and how to heal it all the time; we’ve just become numb to the language and frequency they are speaking to us. I love being that translator and am honored to hear what needs said.
